Today has been one of these days where my mind, body and soul seems to be completely exhausted. I am tired of people’s lies, tired of being used, tired of half truths, tired of feeling guilty of standing up for what I think is right, tired of judgements that seem to come my way constantly. Weariness has seemed to stolen my last breath. If we were all honest I am sure we have all been there a time or two. Well I went home and laid down and mind began to race. Instead of resting I was totally allowing Satan steal my peace. Then I opened up my devotional and read the words……….
John 10:10 The thief comes only to kill, steal and destroy…. I came that they might have life and have it abundantly.
Them words just completely shook me to the core. I have read them many times, but tonight they had a totally different effect on me. I realized that the devil was totally trying to steal my faith with fear and weariness as his weapon. The fear of knowing how my kids lives would be affected by their choices, if they understood what they were doing, the fear of thinking people would believe lies about me. The word says that I should not be a house that houses fear, it diffently should not be a boarder in my house. But power, love and a sound mind should be walking the floors in my house. I started declaring that to the enemy that my past is erased by the blood of Christ. That the words of people should have no effect, because the Great I Am is fighting my battle. Declaring my strength is not found in me ….. But my strength comes solely for God. I declared freedom from guilt…… And declared that I am not a failure in Christ’s eyes but I am a learner. I am a child of the most High God and nothing…..absolutely nothing is going to make me turn around. Yes I have faults we all do, and yes I have bad habits……but I declared that I am trusting and standing with Christ and the victory is mine over every single one of them.
But the biggest declaration I made was…..I declare to you devil that I have a no exhaustible faith. I might get weary, I might get tired, I might even fall down with the breath knocked out of me……..But I am no quitter…….. I get back up…I keep on trying….I keep on walking. Because I know that I know that with one more step I get closer….closer to an enternty with my Heavenly Father.
Heavenly Father,
When the world gets me down and I begin to fill exhausted……from hearing on the television, newspapers, radio, and yes even out of your creations mouth about the victories of Satan…remind me that he has no victory……. not really because your faithfulness your plan your destiny and your goodness and mercy always shines through. It may seem dark, it may even very well be dark……but joy …… Joy comes in the morning. Thank you for teaching me that I must persevere in the face of sorrow, in the face of tragedy, in the face of gossip, in the face of failure……. Thank you for your grace, for your strength and your mercy that endures forever. Lord, please I ask you keep my eyes open to your greatness, to your goodness, to your beauty all around me. Keep my mouth open declaring the Victory of your Son over all sin. Help me love those who seem unlovable, help me help those who hurt and take it out on me, help choose to be a servant who deserves the honor to be called Your friend. I love you Lord…..with all my heart!!!!!
Darlene
