These are the hardest words that I know. How many of you would agree? However as Christian we are held at a higher standard. Christ expects us to admit our wrongs and apologize. Sometimes it hurts because we might have felt wronged, but then other times we where totally in the wrong.
David is a prime example of this. “And David’s heart smote him after that he had numbered the people. And David said unto the LORD, I have sinned greatly in that I have done: and now, I beseech thee, O LORD, take away the iniquity of thy servant; for I have done very foolishly.” -2 Samuel 24:10 You have to realize that in this verse David did exactly what God had completely detested. He told him not to do this, however he did it anyways. And once he did his heart was weighted down with guilt.
I did this in my life many times I am sure. God has told me to love unconditionally….but do I??? Do I always love beyond even uncomfortable boundaries. He told me to be slow to speak and listen…..but no I do not do that always either. He always asked me to weigh my words according to his word before I speak and do I do that always. No!!!! My heart has weighed very heavily lately. I hurt someone who was important to me, who was family. Yes I could make excuses for my behavior and yes I could try to pass off blame….but God would not expect me to do that. So today I ask God for strength to do what I should have done years ago and simply say…” I was wrong, I am so sorry for hurting you and I had no excuse and I will not make one for my behavior and I pray someday you will forgive me.”
Trust me easy it was not. I had to swallow my ego and hardheadedness and do what the Lord expects out of his children and let them see him in me. It isn’t about me, it isn’t about you…it is about the King of Kings who we are suppose to represent.
Heavy Father,
In this day and time life is hard, and tempers flare, and words get spoken….but I ask you today to speak to your people, your children and let them understand that when a word is spoken it cause damage and sometimes the damage cannot be undone. So help us, strengthen us to be the children you have called us to be.
Forever your servant,
Darlene
