REMEMBER………

Last night in Law of Love class we were study Deuteronomy 8 about how Moses is telling the children of Israel not to forget…….not to forget the grace of God and where their God had brought them from.

Last night on my way home I just prayed God please never ever let me forget our lost and desperate I was, or even begin to forget that pit, that dead end you rescued me from. But I do not only want to remember but to know that I know that everything that I have went through has been for my good. To bring me to that good land in my life…..

Oh the message that rang through my heart all night. I laid in bed and thought of many times when I was cradled up in a corner after my ex husband had been very violent and just feeling like no one cared, no one cared that i was living in fear, living with no love, living in a a situation where tomorrow wasn’t even on my date book…living in a life where I could care less if my feet hit the floor one more time, living in a life wondering would anyone actually miss me if I were gone, if he would actually carry out with his threats and end my life….would it be so bad, would any one really miss me? And because I looked back….because I choose to remember I seen the grace of God’s hands protecting my life, protecting my self worth, protecting my spirit from being completely crushed, protecting my heart from hating. Protecting my little girl Clara from ever being harmed………..i see how much he loved me because he did not leave me there. He did not say “she made her bed now she can lay in it”…..No he loved me enough to pick me up cradle me in His loving arms, wipe my tears and provide a life for me that is completely beyond my wildest dreams…..gave me a husband who loves me just as God loves his church…….He gave me kids that are healthy, and has provided for all my needs, and has filled my heart with love for people the world says I should hate, filled my heart with grace for people the world says deserves none. Oh do I remember how he delivered me from drugs, from alcohol, from jealously, from pride, from myself………

You know I remember Tristan when he was just a little guy. He walked over to our wood burner and touch it……”OUCH” followed by a few minutes of screaming, and big big tears…..oh how it broke my heart to see him in such pain. However, he never touch that wood burner again. That is exactly why the Lord wants us to remember also…..One is because his heart just breaks when he sees his children hurting…..so he does not want us to redo mistakes…..relive bad sections or bad choices all over again….He doesn’t want to see us hurt……..but the other…….well to show that we learned…..LEARNED that our God is the giver and sustainor of life…..that our protection, our strength, our bread, our joy, our possessions, our power, our future, our GOOD land is all from him……..and for him. That without him……….without him there is NOTHING!!!!!!!!!

SO remember today……take a few moments and remember your desperate time when you cried out……”Lord I cant do this anymore…..Lord I need you, I am falling apart, I don’t want to go on. I don’t want this life anymore, I don’t want this pain, I don’t need money, I don’t need possessions, i don’t need friends or even family……I NEED YOU!!!!!!!!” Then remember his response ……… “Child I love you, Come allow me to take your burdens. Let me love you.”

Remember today!!!!!!!!