This letter is for any drug addicted child and My Dear Clarissa,My mind is screaming, I’m abandoning you. Even though you and I know you’re all grown up, but to me, no matter what you’ll always be my baby. And the truly biggest problem for me is as a mom my mom-nature is to protect you from a world of wickedness, a world where deceit seems so naturual, and selfishness is a way of life. I looked into your eyes so many times and all I see a broken little girl. But you need to …close your eyes and realize that when your broken your parents, brother, and sister is broken also. I can sit here and think: if you had a cold I could tuck you in bed give you chicken noodle soup and nurse you back to health. But meth has literally stole you from me. Tonight I don’t even know if your inside in the warmth……And although I have been fighting, I’m not gaining any ground because your choosing death over life, meth over family, prison over freedom. This Is the hardest fight I’ve ever fought. You Clara are my precious little girl and a addict. An addict! Oh my I can barely say it. I feel so sick. I HATE that word. And yet, it is so very true. Why does the truth have to be so hard? I miss you. Truly my heart is breaking. I so want too feel your hug? Hear your laugh? Gosh I love your giggle …..
I don’t want you to be an addict I want you to be sober and happy I want you to fulfill all your dreams and give your heart over to God But when I close my eyes I see this addiction is sucking the life out of you. Sucking the you out of you. I’m sad for the life you could have but are missing; and I am grieving for the kidnapping of my daughter by drugs (Meth).Please Clara I beg you let me know where you are and turn yourself in and face the consequences for the choices you have made, so you can begin to mend, grow, and get rid of the title Drug Addict.
Love you to the moon and back!!!
Mom